For the longest time, I waited for the world to change, so that I could be happier. I knew that I wasn’t happy where I was at, and my frustration was usually focused at external sources. I overcame that mountain and now people know me as “The guy that never not smiles.” What a great place to be.
But there was something lurking in the shadows, something that was later going to come back and bite me in the arse. That thing was the personal declaration of, “I’ve made it. I’ve gone through my growing pains. I get to be selfish now.” This ego driven mindset, had me take a number of things for granted. The biggest of which, was the pure love and devotion of one of the greatest ladies this world has ever produced. I lost that relationship, but I’m glad to have gained something even more important: The opprotunity to break my selfish cycle and reconnect with people again.
I’ve been asking myself and others how to do this, and what I’ve gathered for myself is that I’m going to find what I’m looking for through acceptance. Pure 100% “ain’t nothing wrong here” acceptance.
The good news is that there is nowhere else to look but towards myself.
The bad news is that there is nowhere else to look but towards myself.
On this quest to Know Myself and be the Best I Can Be ™, I’ve unexpectedly found someone who has already guided me towards being the person I want to be. I’m amazed at how much I’ve enjoyed the company of another person so late at night for so many nights in a row. I mean, aren’t 2AM phone conversations something you’re supposed to grow out of in college?
–Snoopykiss wants to grow up, but be a Toys R Us kid.